IS IT FEAR OR ENJOYMENT?
I’ve been staying upstate New York for the past two weeks and I’ve been enjoying it so much that I want to spend the summer here before I go to Basic Training. Things here are so full of life and I’m really enjoying it here, all the activities, the work I’m doing, spending time with my best friend and her brother, who in essence is like my brother as well…but what is this really, am I enjoying this life or am I afraid of going to the Marines?
Talking to a Marine friend of mine, he told me that he enjoyed his summer before going to Basic and there was nothing wrong should I want to do the same thing, it’s just enjoying life and getting to what you really want to do when you’re ready and when it’s the actual time. I do have the rest of the year, well until December, I tell myself, but do I really want to wait that long? No. I also don’t want to be in a position where I can’t focus on things because I’d rather be doing something else, like Kayaking, or hiking (although the Marines do a lot of hiking, but not the fun sort of hiking…) water skiing, and all the other fun stuff my best friend is doing for the summer and I can’t because I’m off being incredibly responsible with the task of becoming a Marine.
In the summers I’ve spent here in New York, I haven’t had a summer just for fun, I haven’t just took a summer vacation where I do all the things I’ve wanted to do: Sailing, Kayaking, bonfire parties, hiking, white water rafting, and all that other fun stuff and this summer seems to be heading that route, do I turn it down to be a Marine or do I just take the summer and enjoy the winter running through the grass with my rifle??? I’ve been thinking about the things I still need to get done and will accomplish in like two days when I got back down to the city this weekend, the fact that I will just live out of a suitcase for about a month once I’m ready to leave, it seems all simplistic now as well as the best thing to do…to follow my heart.
Do I want to be the Marine that’s distracted, or do I want to be the Marine that’s focused because she got a ton of things done this summer??? I think I’d prefer the latter, and since later on during the year there are less High School students in the Corp for training I think I can go then, fewer teenagers to deal with, this is sounding better and better!
This summer is turning out to be the best one of my life here in NY, this year is turning out to be the one that will shape my future, I need to proceed with cautionary steps and make sure that I do everything when it’s time, when I am ready and not regret anything, including not kayaking or rolling around the grass with my rifle for the sake of humanity… it’s enjoyment.
